Bro. Woodward

Today a great man past away. Today i just keep thinking about the times I spent around him. i am trying hard not to shed tears but by the end of today it will happen. He touched every one in my family's hearts and lives. I will always remember his hugs, his love for me and so many others, along with his great testimony. He was someone who smiled and made you feel so much love when he was around you. He loved his wife and his family so much and I think I can include his YSA children in that. He was a wonderful man who will forever hold a place in my heart. Thank you Woodward family for letting us have him for so long and thank you Brother Woodward for caring about us and supporting us.

GPA

So i just finished my second to last semester at ASU and i got all A's and one B+ (meaning I was like a few points away from an A. Stink!) ! But I got my GPA up to a 3.45 and that is my whole college career! I mean who did not do a little cruddy their freshman year? i know I did. I never cared about my GPA as long as it did not get near that I could lose my scholarship point, but now I get to graduate with honors. It is the lowest rank of honors but goodness who cares!!! I get to get a maroon cord to wear with my cap and gown. I am really excited that I am graduating with honors for having a pretty decent GPA! I am very proud of myself right now. GO me!!

Amazing day!

Notice much that most of my amazing days involve going to the temple? Ya i think there is a pattern. Today i hung out with Brian, Candice, and Landon. Went to Jillian and Brian's Wedding reception and it was so fun! Went to the temple. Always good! Went home with Cheryl and had a heart to heart fabulous convo! Came home and asked my mom if she would go to a movie with me! Mom and daughter date night! Saw letters to Juliet! Fabulous!! completely clean!!! Sorry I am writing weird i am just so happy right now and I had some hard days recently and I just needed this and feel so fulfilled and great! It is good to know days like these still happen. Heavenly Father shows us we can make it by giving us days like today! I am grateful! Everything works out the way it is planned. In a couple days i am going to Kansas to visit my family and i am so excited! Scared a tad because I have not been to an airport to fly since I was 14 and uh there are tornadoes in KC but um I think i will be okay!!! Oh and I get a certificate from Institute Sunday! yay! I am just good today. I might be having hard days again soon, but you got to write about days like today to remember and look forward to the fabulous days of the future.

lots of love!

oh boy

So the past couple of days have been on the rather interesting side. I had a creeper following me. Well Jamie said lurker and that is a better word but it got creepy real fast! This guy had been lurking around me a lot lately and I always feel uncomfortable around him, well recently anyways. Well Sunday he started saying things that would turn me off from anyone because it was just creepy. Then some brilliant person must have given this guy my phone number because I started getting text from him. Basically i ended up getting a text that said since I think you are attractive how should we get to know each other better. Well i tried to let him down nicely but be straightforward because I am gonna admit he unnerved me and not in a good way, so I had to pursue my safety first. Well goodness I still feel like a heap of jerkness and do not want to leave the confines of my house and ASU west. Those places I feel safe and like I am not going to run into anyone. I was not feeling in a particularly social mood already but goodness now i just want to hide. But YSA conference is this weekend and I cannot hide. sigh. It just all keeps running through my head and i get the heebie jeebies again! ugh. but it has caused me to reflect and think about what i do want in a guy and that is someone who does not want to get to know me for my looks, but thinks I am beautiful because for who I am. oh boy!!

Happiness Amongst Stress

Well folks it is stress time!! As an English major our final essays are all due the last week of April sometimes first week of may but regardless every class has a lot due and all at the same time. This is of course around the same time as YSA conference which I am also stressed about. having 3 demanding callings at one time is so not helping. Are we sure I was prayed about before I was given these callings? I know it was prayed about, but I dont get how I am supposed to do all this and why its a good thing. Then work is stressful and you know what Deseret Book dont pay too much or I am not able to work enough. Either way I am not a fan. I love my job but its just stressing me. I am trying to perfect the pictures and it is something that cannot be perfected. Why do i try to perfect my work? I know it involves working with other people's ideas so we will never all be on the same wave length. but still i try. Then next week is inventory and i work 12 hours on friday. sigh. I hope I live without developing heart problems or stomach ulcers. But besides all that I am happy and excited about summer and graduating early. I am a tad stressed about choosing the right summer classes but I think it will work out. I am going to PVCC for summer school to graduate early by the way! My counselor told me it would be cheaper and since I never went to a community college it was okay that i took my 13 credits of elective there. yay. And pvcc should not be too hard since I have been taking mostly 400 level classes. sigh how do i do it all? All seem important and what I should be doing. lets not even go down that path of keeping a social life. But I am happy and life is good just stressful. I never thought you could both be happy and stressed but it does exist. Just because i want to cry from stress does not mean I am not happy about where I am in life. I am really good and really happy, I just am freaking out about getting everything done. love you all!!!

My commitment

Okay so as we all know I have been totally fishing around for some direction in my life. I kept getting the answer to wait it out and it will come. Let me restate i hate that answer but is the one we always get or at least me. Okay well I got a real answer yesterday. i have had lots of answers i think the Lord would be okay with but graduating in December makes me feel so at peace, a peace i have not had in a long time. I just feel that there is a reason that I need to graduate in December. However this requires summer school. Well here is where I am meeting resistance. half of the people I have told tell me it is too much i will hate life and it will be tough getting a job afterwards anyway so why. Well this is anti-helpful. I need support! I know whats right but it is so easy to except it will be too tough and that I should wait. I still need to meet with my counselor and I am starting to think it might not be possible. I need prayers and support. I can do it right?? I got 3 people in support I need more cause it will be tough but I really feel it will be worth it. Bring it on life! I finally feel happy because I know what I need to do in life, even if just for the rest of the year. Ahh! happiness!

California!

I loved my trip to Cali with Celena! We drove up Friday morning and came back Wednesday morning at 3 am! lol We wanted to stay was long as possible!
On our drive up we passed Redlands where a thought popped into my head "Hey dont they have a temple in Redlands?" Why yes they do! SO with my handy dandy GPS and cha cha we found it! I loved it! The best part besides having the coolest spots and stairs, was that it is built on a small spot of land with adjoining a stake center. This gave me great hope that our temple can be built and will be just as amazingly beautiful!

Then Saturday We went to Santa Barbara and went to the Natural History Museum of Santa Barbara. I would post pics but I got to go soon, so i might post them later. Or go see my facebook. But I cannot believe it cost 8 dollars to get in. We had fun and we got to pet starfish, a sea cucumber, and a sea urchin. There were also sharks still in their eggs. It was cool i have to admit. Then I bought my nieces dolphin bracelets which do not even say anything about the museum on them.

We got hit by daylight savings time! Never had I been through one and you know what cell phones do not switch over by themselves so Celena and i go the full experience as we got ready and drove to church in 20 minutes. We planned on looking so much hotter but hey we looked pretty fine for 20 minutes. Church was well interesting and that is about all I can say about it. We went to my Aunt and Uncles ward to see my Uncle in action as bishop and then went to the singles ward. Lets say we did a whole heck of a lot of laughing!

Then monday we went to the museum of tolerance, then Tuesday sat out and read some books outside and i got a horrible looking sun burn. The burn was not too horrible but it is slanted and looks awful and funny. sigh. We got to celebrate my cousin's 10th birthday and we enjoyed it soooooo much! We played lot of Wii resort and we both really want that game now. I just got to get a wii first. dang. Celena already has one, but it is my favorite thing to do, uh well when wasting time! Well go to go to school! Spring Break is over!!!